I Had An Ugly Cry Session in L.A.

A few weeks ago, I had an emotional flashback which is a symptom of PTSD and complex PTSD.

The past couple of weeks has been a recovery from that episode. After a quick trip to Los Angeles, I’m finally feeling more myself, where I’m currently typing this newsletter right now, from my friend’s balcony in West Hollywood.

I am currently exploring neighborhoods and plan to move here end of May. Since I’ve come to visit, I felt the weight of my anxiety lift. I’ve lived in NYC for almost 9 years, and I now realize how much anxiety, stress, and trauma this city and my former fashion career gave me.

I needed a change, and L.A. feels like home because of the peace it brings me. I’ve been exploring all of the beach towns outside L.A. and fell in love with Redondo Beach.

During my exploration of this beach town, a dear friend of mine sent me a voice message telling me the work I’m doing has inspired and encouraged her to keep going. She ended the message with YOU MATTER.

I immediately burst into tears in the middle of the beach. I never know how many people I am influencing with my work and writing, but hearing this affirmation that I helped someone made me genuinely feel like I do matter in this world and I’m here for a reason...This reason is to positively empower you to be yourself in this world and to know that is always enough.

Mary

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