More Of What Is True For You Is On Its Way To You
Betrayal is a concept I know way too well, and it’s a concept I experienced way too young. It’s a concept that stole my innocence, my childhood, and my joy.
Betrayal found a steady home in my body, and in the past year, it has found its way out and replaced by more of what is true for me.
Unconditional love.
A few weeks ago, I was sitting in my best friend’s house in a virtual somatic therapy session, bawling my eyes out hours before a Bumble date.
I went into this session specifically to work on the betrayal wound.
“I can sense betrayal in my chest, my heart freezes, and everything halts,” I explain to my therapist, “I want this energy out of my body and out of my nervous system.”
So she gently guides me into the betrayal wound trapped in the center of my heart.
“What’s happening now?” she asks as I feel my heart freeze like a frozen waterfall.
“Can you lean into this sensation?” she guides me as my throat closes, and I hold back tears.
“I have this urge to cry like I’ve been holding so much in, and it wants to come out,” I share.
“Crying is a release,” she says, “Let go.”
Tears stream down my face as I shake uncontrollably.
“If your tears had words for you, what would they say?” she says.
“They would say you have been through so much in the past year, and you never had to go through this pain alone,” I say as I think back to how dark 2022 was.
From an ovarian tumor diagnosis to challenges in my long-distance relationship, to self-doubt in my business, and an eventual earth-shattering breakup.
It was a year of shadows.
A year of unconscious wounding, rising to the surface to meet the greatest revelation of all, I always had access to the light.
“Can you bring a source of support into the room?” my therapist asks.
I imagine my best friend, Katie, in the room with me. I thought back to my breakup last fall and how she supported me through it.
She gave me the biggest, warmest, loving hug when I shared how I was so afraid of never meeting anyone who would unconditionally love me through my trauma as my ex did.
Her hug broke my limiting beliefs as if to say energetically unconditional love is all around me, not just from my ex…duh.
The frozen waterfall melts as life-force energy cascades down my heart and to my toes.
“I feel my heart moving again,” I said and just in time for my upcoming date.
“Is there a message your heart has for you?” says my somatic therapist.
I feel the warmth of love and joy inside.
It feels boundless.
Limitless.
Endless.
“More of what is true for you is on its way to you,” I say.
What’s true for me is I belong here.
What’s true for me is I am loved.
What’s true for me is life gets to be good now.
The past has loosened its grip on my present. Isn’t this the purpose of healing?
“It sounds like the counter vortex of betrayal is unconditional love, and now you know you always had it,” my therapist says.
And everything clicked…even in my darkest moments of remastering betrayal, unconditional love was not far away.
A shadow can’t exist without the light, and betrayal can never take away opportunities to receive love in the way I deserve.
Because more of what is true for me is on its way.
2023 has been off to an incredible start with new beginnings, new workshops, new celebrations, and new dreams.
Starting with a huge announcement for my Crowdfunding campaign!
Write & Release has reached 10K in funding!
Thank you, IFundWomen, for selecting my business as the Pay-It-Forward grant this month!
Each month IFundwomen and its partners reward high-performing entrepreneurs fundraising on IFundWomen with additional capital to help them reach their crowdfunding goals.
I am now so much closer to hitting my goal thanks to IFundwomen and Dagne Dover, a favorite handbag brand of mine, and as a former NYC handbag designer, this is extra meaningful to me 🙏🏼
Write & Release is on a mission to provide relief to the education system by providing emotional and mental health support for burnout teachers leading the next generation of leaders.
I am so grateful for the amount of support and recognition I am receiving to make this dream a reality! We have 5K more to go. If you’d like to contribute, you can do so here, and as always sending my campaign to your friends and family is a great way to support Sincerely Miss Mary!
Sincerely,
Mary
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