You Deserve To Rage Write 💥

My rage writing began with hate letters directed to this older woman.

This woman hated me, yet she was my leader. A label she didn’t deserve yet this was her role.

She stripped me of my design roles. She made me clean closets and sort binders in front of my entire team as they just watched in silence and complicity.

And I just took it in the same silence and complicity others carried inside them.

Years later, I was sitting in my therapist’s office six months after leaving this abusive work environment and began sharing my experiences with no emotion intact.

I had numbed myself so much from the abuse I felt nothing, even though I cognitively understood the emotional violence this woman put me through.

“You’re allowed to be angry, Maryann, and when you feel this come up and out of your body, write it down, wherever and wherever you are, pull out your phone and let your anger speak,” my therapist said.

It was the permission I never knew I needed to feel again, and damn did it feel so good to let myself be rightfully angry and channel it into words on the notes app on my iPhone.

One letter to this woman turned into 10, then 20, then 100. All on my iPhone to help me validate my emotional experience of what this abusive woman put me through.

I was able to breathe again. Inhale to the full capacity of my lungs and exhale redemption, worthiness, and a reclamation of my identity.

This is somatic writing. You are giving your body a place to speak.

It has been my companion to therapy. It helped me get out of denial of my abusive relationship. It helped me see the severity of my childhood trauma.

This powerful tool has been my knight in shining armor, giving me wisdom, clarity, and persistence to keep going.

Sincerely,

Mary

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